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last updated: Nov 16, 2008

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Your life was a blessing, your memory a treasure..You are loved beyond words and missed beyond measure

Even from the womb, Matthew taught us that things were going to be done his way and he was a fighter.

Matthew was due September 24, but on June 2 (at 23 weeks and 5 days gestation) Matthew decided to try and break through! My water broke and contractions began. I was hospitalized and spent 9 weeks in the hospital before Matthew said enough was enough and tried to escape butt first! On August 6 (7 weeks before his due date), Matthew was born by emergency cesarean. The same doctor who said he wouldn't make it was there to hear his first cry. After nearly 4 weeks in the NICU, Matthew came home on September 1.

Matthew is a Hebrew name meaning "Gift of God" and that he truly was.

Matthew blessed us on this earth for 70 days before falling victim to Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. He is our beautiful angel and we will always miss him. We will keep his website up to remember him and honor him.

While We were hoping for a lifetime of memories with him, I got his lifetime of memories with us. . .

When a child is born, so are parents, siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins. These people build the support system that a child can depend on their entire life. Matthew is incredibly loved by so many amazing people, even before birth. Everyday we are reminded of the importance of family and how fortunate we are to have the extraordinary family that we have.

Click on our family portrait to meet the grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and spectacular people that Matthew is honored to have as family.

I long to feel the soft weight of you
to welcome you home with kisses on round silky cheeks
Instead my arms ache with the weight of your absence
The empty places that were once meant for you to grow into
My love for you will last an eternity
My hopes and dreams now carried
on the fragile wings of each butterfly passing
compeling me to pause, to savor each moment,
each flutter in my heart - your wings

The story section was created to give regular updates on everything happening in Matthew's life. You can go here to read about his time in his womb, his delivery, his time in the NICU and the fun we had after he was born. It will be updated from time to time with the thoughts we have of our baby.

With Matthew's arrival, Kaitlyn is a big sister! Kaitlyn is a great big sister! She is already fascinated with all things baby and loves to help! Kaitlyn loves Matthew so much and can't stand to be apart from him for even a minute. She likes to be near him at all times. She pats him when he cries, hands me diapers and likes to show him all her toys.
Kaitlyn is a darling 3 year old and you can read all about her at her own website by clicking on her picture below!

The picture section is easily my favorite. Be sure to check out how much Matthew has grown! If you have any pictures of Matthew, please do not hesitate to e-mail them to us. They are all treasured beyond words. If you have pictures you would like us to upload, please let me know and I gladly will.

This is the only video we have of Matthew. It was his first trip to the park, which he loved, when he was about a month and a half old. It was 2 weeks after he came home.

Please don't hesitate to sign the guestbook. We love to read the ways Matthew has touched the lives of others. We know that while we lost a son, he was so much to so many others and you are more than welcome to use this site as an outlet. It is a great place to share stories, memories, thoughts and anything else you desire.

Please feel free to contact us at anytime.

Stories

11/15/08Another month has passed since we were last able to hold you, kiss you and enjoy all that you offered our family.We miss you more and more everyday to the point where it physically hurts. We wish you were here with us to celebrate Kaitlyn's birthday and each sunrise.We love you.
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11/06/08Happy 15 month birthday Matthew! We miss you so much. Kaitlyn has been talking about you non-stop the last few days. She thinks we should just hop up there and get you and believe me, if we could figure out a way, we would be there.Sending you lots of hugs, many many kisses and all of our love.
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10/31/08And we pass another Halloween where Matthew isn't with us to dress up, ask for candy and enjoy the beauty of glowing pumpkins lining driveways.We miss you so much Matthew and think of you with every passing moment.
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10/15/08We Miss you so much Matthew. We love you more than you'll ever know.Thank you so much everyone for all of your kind words and prayers.
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10/14/08Today marks a year since the last time Matthew was alive in our family.This day last year was a Sunday. We had a good day, heck we had a good weekend. On Saturday we went on the Spookomotive train through Old Sac, then to Grandma and Grandpa's before going to Nana and Papa's house. Sunday we went to Grandma and Grandpa's for Sunday Dinner and even took Matthew to Target for his first
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10/06/08Today, Matthew would have been 14 months old. Kaitlyn and I will be taking him balloons later on this afternoon to celebrate his special day!Matthew is missed more and more each and every day :) He is loved with all of our hearts.
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Guestbook

Hi Denise,

I have been thinking about you and Matthew a lot this past week as on October 29th our friends lost their 3 month old baby girl Nichole to SIDS. Seeing the toll that this loss has taken on them is devastating.

I just tell you again how wonderful it is to have a place like
-Debbie Wax, bhp/datsdwax     Nov 14 2008
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From one mother who has lost a son, to another! I honor my son every day with his my memories of him; as you do for Matthew. I am so thankful to Melanie for introducing me to this website! My son would have just turned four. Time does not heal this pain, and i am far from an understanding of the ans
-Lauren Gates     Nov 12 2008
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matthew,
we miss you and love you with all our hearts. this is for you.

a special boy came our way
and bloomed but for the shortest stay
he spreads his wings in heavens skies
our little daredevil will soar so high

Can't you feel him as he stirs up the wind
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-Aunt Teresa and Uncle Johnny     Nov 11 2008
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We are always thinking about you.
-Patti     Nov 11 2008
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I was just thinking about you today and wanted to stop by and give you kisses goodnight!!

-Melanie Johnson     Nov 10 2008
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